FINAL SHOOT

I love my final photographs, they are so delicate and beautifully show the theme. I was supposed to change the localization, the whole photoshoot was made in my garden. The model is quite dark, and at first, she seems to be a little bit sad, but she's wearing very colorful, layered dress, which reminded me about the childish vision of women. She's this image. Similar to Alice in Wonderland, she seems to be lost in the reality she's in. There is the contrast between her and the dress. It was a long journey to find the concept I want to stay with, but I love how I discovered my final garment. It was a very long process, with many things that I haven't used. I spend a lot of time making samples of different prints. I printed 3 meters long piece, but at the end, I didn't use it. It looked really bad and ruined my vision. I know that It would be great if I would use them in my final garment, but I don't want to be unhappy with my outcome. All the prints are in my sketchbook. 

                         

WEEK 8

This whole week was about making. I learned a lot, I think It was very productive week in my whole year. I talked with the teachers how to make patterns. I have basic knowledge about it but I needed to extend my dress, and add some changes.  It was really easy and I made it quickly. I mean it took a lot of time but It all went very smooth.                  

                                
                                    


Tuasday was a completely disaster, my sewing machine stopped working, and I was not able to sew everything. So next day I came earlier to take sewing machines from CLR. It took me a while to see how they works, but after an hour I started sewing. I made the whole base for a dress. It looks exactly how I wanted so I am very happy.


                   



Then I moved to pinning my materials, and cutting them. I have three colors: pink, yellow, and baby purple. I bought also bottle green, but It completely doesn’t work. I mean it’s nice but it destroys the vision of something very childish, because It makes the whole garment darker. Today we also had the photoshoot but I haven’t taken part in it. I planned my own photoshoot earlier. I will have a model and photographer so I hope it will be great! I want to make the photos outside, to catch some light. I was calling to the gardens, where I wanted take photos, but they are not answering, so probably I will change the location.

WEEK 7

Week 7 is about to end, and I think I haven’t done some things that I planned. I bought the materials that I chose previously, they were based on a color palettes that I was doing during last week. I need to choose the color from my painting, to make it more clear. I think I will do 3 or 4 color palettes, and add samples that I made. I still haven’t done mood boards and concept boards. I think it’s because my ideas are still changing, and I can’t stay with one idea. This project ’s a journey with lots of ups and downs. Today is Thursday and I’m mainly working on a stand, taking photographs and sketching. I bought 3 meters of tuille (pink, yellow, black) and white synthetic material to make my final print on. I’m still trying to figure out my final garment. I want to make as much drawing, photographs as I can, to connect my ideas in one coherent lineup. Next week I want to saw everything and do a photoshoot.

Today I figured out that I want to use my favorite film Alice from Wonderland, as a connecting my ideas motif. It's so magical, and I think it fits perfectly. Everything in this film is so incredibly fascinating. In the world of Tim Burton, everything is possible, it reminds me of being a kid the whole life. I love the magical gardens, and I think I will plan a photo shoot in the similar place, I know one location in Shoreditch and it's called Nomadic Community Garden. I will go there and take some photos to see how it looks like, the place is abandoned and run-down, but I want to have a contrast between the magical, full of hope person, and the world around, which is so beautiful in their ugliness.

Photos of the location:

Today is Friday. This week was very long, with sometimes really hard days. I was tired because of my work, project and the decisions about the unis that I have to make, but I am happy now because I figured out what should I do next, and how I want it to look like. During weekend I want to continue with working on a stand, because I am not really sure about garments I made during this week. They are fine, but I think like I can do it better. I made the design board with a final color palette. For future I need to work on my fashion ilustration. I am not a big fan of my drawings, some of them are better, some not. I am really good at more realistic drawings, and the abstract ones sometimes are to abstract, and it's sometimes hard for me to find a balance. 

On Monday I will came to school to make print on my material, and then start sewing. I want to finish my garment untill the end of week 8. I need also to update my bibliography!! (Alice in Wonderland, Dark). On Monday 21th I have planned a photoshoot. Everything is prepared, I have a model, make-up artist and location for shoot. I hope the weather will be fine! 

WEEK 6

The week 5 is about to end, and I have the breakdown. I have no idea what to do next. I have research so many things, and much more is in my head. To move somehow I decided to spend few days in the prototyping. I need to make more samples to finalize or maybe start my design process. I think I started a little bit too late, but I think that I can figure it out. I have some problems with the machine, they didn’t work properly, so I wasted some time on trying to fix them. Also sending files for printer wasn’t easy. I think it just wasn’t my day. But I have about 8 samples of my paintings that I’ve done during weekend. I also made more samples, that I have done today. I scanned my previous paintings, I played a little bit with the scale and then I photoshopped them. Actually, by accident I think the last two samples are the best. They are very colorful and full of the energy. 

                           

On Friday I started draping from materials that I created through this week. Everything was good, until I realized, wait, it looks like a dress for a kid, I was like „hah it’s so funny”, but all the materialsI used were so colorful, and at first I didn’t realized that I am making colorful things from the beginning. I am the kid, everyone telling me that. Maybe that’s the answer I was looking for, from the beginning. When I was thinking about my FMP I wanted to do something about unconsciousness, I wanted to watch films about people who are finding themselves, who are looking for answers, why they are doing this and that. I was always a fan of psychological and philosophical books. But It’s a contrast. Philosophers are more thinkers, but psychologists are more science-based. I want just run away from the reality that people created, there’s no such a thing as real reality or unreal reality, it’s one. But we as a people can in our heads can decide who we want to be, and we can just do it. I want the time to stop, the time is passing and I am getting older.

I think now I am sure that by creating the clothes I am creating my own reality where I can be fully myself. I learned that is only in my head and can be represented by my work. I want people to feel free with their own minds, to connect inside with outside, I want to make it work together, in the harmony. When I was small my dream was to travel, be all the time curious about the world around me and each day learn more. Why people around are telling us that we need to grow up. GROW UP, IT’S LIFE, LIFE IS HARD, life is not hard. It's all in our heads. It’s all like a fairytale, the 'real' time doesn’t exist, we just need to move on, because we don’t want to be bored. I want my clothes to represent dreams, fairytales, the imagination of a kid. Happiness, sadness, angriness. The basic emotions that are still with us, no matter what the time is. We all love, we all are sad sometimes, but we're just looking for a way to be happy. My collection will be about looking for the happiness.