WEEK 6

The week 5 is about to end, and I have the breakdown. I have no idea what to do next. I have research so many things, and much more is in my head. To move somehow I decided to spend few days in the prototyping. I need to make more samples to finalize or maybe start my design process. I think I started a little bit too late, but I think that I can figure it out. I have some problems with the machine, they didn’t work properly, so I wasted some time on trying to fix them. Also sending files for printer wasn’t easy. I think it just wasn’t my day. But I have about 8 samples of my paintings that I’ve done during weekend. I also made more samples, that I have done today. I scanned my previous paintings, I played a little bit with the scale and then I photoshopped them. Actually, by accident I think the last two samples are the best. They are very colorful and full of the energy. 

                           

On Friday I started draping from materials that I created through this week. Everything was good, until I realized, wait, it looks like a dress for a kid, I was like „hah it’s so funny”, but all the materialsI used were so colorful, and at first I didn’t realized that I am making colorful things from the beginning. I am the kid, everyone telling me that. Maybe that’s the answer I was looking for, from the beginning. When I was thinking about my FMP I wanted to do something about unconsciousness, I wanted to watch films about people who are finding themselves, who are looking for answers, why they are doing this and that. I was always a fan of psychological and philosophical books. But It’s a contrast. Philosophers are more thinkers, but psychologists are more science-based. I want just run away from the reality that people created, there’s no such a thing as real reality or unreal reality, it’s one. But we as a people can in our heads can decide who we want to be, and we can just do it. I want the time to stop, the time is passing and I am getting older.

I think now I am sure that by creating the clothes I am creating my own reality where I can be fully myself. I learned that is only in my head and can be represented by my work. I want people to feel free with their own minds, to connect inside with outside, I want to make it work together, in the harmony. When I was small my dream was to travel, be all the time curious about the world around me and each day learn more. Why people around are telling us that we need to grow up. GROW UP, IT’S LIFE, LIFE IS HARD, life is not hard. It's all in our heads. It’s all like a fairytale, the 'real' time doesn’t exist, we just need to move on, because we don’t want to be bored. I want my clothes to represent dreams, fairytales, the imagination of a kid. Happiness, sadness, angriness. The basic emotions that are still with us, no matter what the time is. We all love, we all are sad sometimes, but we're just looking for a way to be happy. My collection will be about looking for the happiness.